When I miscarried my first pregnancy after a long struggle with infertility, I was devastated.
No one else mourned my loss the way I did. They couldn’t. I had already planned an entire life with the child growing inside me.
Therapy helped me to a point but I felt so alone and misunderstood navigating my grief about the miscarriage.
Not only was I processing my grief, but I had to make a decision on if and when I would go back into fertility treatment.
I felt stuck.
I spent months confused and heartbroken, not knowing what was the right decision to make for my family and my own heart.
I was terrified of having another loss. All of my dreams were wrapped up in the pregnancy I lost.
I desperately wanted to believe that I could become a mother, but I wasn’t sure how I couldn’t bring myself to try again. I wasn’t sure I could trust my body and I could not figure out how to talk about it with someone that understood my situation.
Then I began to research disenfranchised grief and pregnancy loss and how many women suffered in silence from losses like mine and never had the courage to try again. I read everything I could about Post Traumatic Growth and found a life coach that helped me see everything in a different light.
Through coaching, I was able to look forward to the future and become excited again about building my family.
The changes I experienced with coaching were so profound that I became a certified infertility life coach. It is my mission to teach women trying to conceive how to get through their grief after pregnancy loss and create a new path to motherhood for themselves.